i have a budget of around £300 and instead of. putting it into my pc i want to make my setup better. anything will help im willing to experiment with it so any theme will be great.
So, Im 17M and for as long as I can remember, I have this thing where I feel like I'm watching my life happen instead of living it. Like, I know what I'm doing and stuff, but it doesn't feel like I'm the one who's doing it. I don't know how to explain it, it's really hard. For example, say that I wanted to turn my TV on. I would think about turning my TV on, and I know I'm doing it, but when I actually go to do it, I don't feel like that's me doing it. It's so hard to explain, I'm so sorry if this is confusing.
And it's like, I've had this as long as I can remember, and my memory feels really bad as well. And I've just recently had a girlfriend, and we've been dating for like, a couple months now. And every single time that I go around her house or something, or she comes over to mine, or we just do anything, and I'm having a nice time, I'll go back home and I'll feel like none of that just actually happened. Like, I have to look back at photos and I have to be like, wow, that was actually me. It's really annoying and I don't know what it is, and I can't get rid of it no matter what I do.
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I'm only 17, and I don't really want a therapist because I don't want my parents getting involved in it or anything. So, yeah, I just need help. Its been YEARS and its not like its on and off i mean ive constantly felt like this to the point where i have no memory of what it feels like to not have it. anything will help please
so to keep it short, im 17 and i just had a girl (now my girlfriend) over my house for the first time, at first i was worrying but it turned out great and its one of the best days in my life. a few hours after she left, everything that i thought was perfect and her kissing me didnt even feel like it avtually happened. it felt like i just dreamt it. this is just an example but its been happening with everythjng recently especially things where ive had a great time. its like im watching everything from third person its super hard to explain but i can see everything im doing but its like my brain is making me do it automatically. if anyone has similar experiences, knows what this is, or can help in anyway ill appreciate it.
so to keep it short, im 17 and i just had a girl (now my girlfriend) over my house for the first time, at first i was worrying but it turned out great and its one of the best days in my life. a few hours after she left, everything that i thought was perfect and her kissing me didnt even feel like it avtually happened. it felt like i just dreamt it. this is just an example but its been happening with everythjng recently especially things where ive had a great time. its like im watching everything from third person its super hard to explain but i can see everything im doing but its like my brain is making me do it automatically. if anyone has similar experiences, knows what this is, or can help in anyway ill appreciate it.