Meeting needs support, super torn
Honestly, I did this to myself. I took over a meeting in my area and all the other members disappeared. It's been 2 years. I thought I had some people coming back but everyone disappeared again and I'm left keeping things afloat.
I'm so exhausted and shared how I feel about it but most of the responses I get are encouraging. It's confusing because I think I am acting on a defect by being so scared to walk away but I don't know if I'm being selfish by wanting to leave.
My gf comes with me to help open and we have people stop by once a week but no one else is committed to the group. I love hearing that I'm doing a good job and being of service for the newcomer, but I'm really sad that the community seems to forget I'm here.
I had one man say I need to go to other meetings and share about it. I agree that is a solution but I'm so tired that really makes me want to cry.
Fuck what do I do? I'm trying to let go of expectations and stay willing but so far I'm not getting any clear answers.