How to heal after leaving a toxic spiritual group/house?
Hi everyone!
I had joined a spiritual group where they had worked with a variety of spirits in the temple. They offered different types of occult related classes and hosted rituals (not just haitian voodou). The head priest said they were a hougan priest and practiced new orleans voodou. I had came for one of their rituals. I was quite drunk when this happened, and later found out I have a met tet. I was told she had "partially posessed" me. I was given items related to the met tet and was instructed to create a home altar for my met tet. He had told me that I was born with her, and voodou must have ran in my family. My family is heavily Catholic, and didnt know I have voudou. After I did some Googling, I was surprised to hear there was intersection in my cultural heritage and voodou due to colonialism.
I later left the group when I come to realize that the spiritual group was manipulative, and felt uncomfortable with the group dynamics. I am quite new to spirituality and spirit work. I have been feeling a lot of fear since leaving. I was taught leaving would have spiritual consequences and must follow specific protocols to work with the spirits. I havent contacted my met tet since I had left. Recently her ritual cup had fell over the items and a piece of the cup broke while I was contemplating if I should call her, whether or not if the connection was real. I had interpreted this as maybe she was real, and wanted a connection. I am not sure.
I'm looking for advice on what to do. Perhaps I should find a hougan or mambo to confirm. But I feel quite vulnerable, and wary. Does anyone have advice?