u/No_Bookkeeper_1496

Hey all,

My partner and I have been together 10 years for the last 7 he has been in agony. We have been in and out of hospitals dealt with him constantly losing weight, vomiting, stomach pain, severe bloating, stomach ulcers.

The doctors treated him like he was crazy. Saying r was his anxiety sending us home time after time. This year we looked into it more ourselves, we asked for a H.pylori test and where told it probably wasn't that and they wouldn't test for it because he is not Polynesian.

We got a second opinion, he took the test. 7 years of struggle and he is positive for H.pylori. we cried maybe he can finally live again, work again, go for walks, eat good food.

He's on treatment today, what can he expect going forward. What do we need to watch out for? He already had ulcers and some bleeding from them, how long do these take to heal.

Today is a held breath. It is words I can't seem to swallow. Lies dripping from my tongue. It is the screams I have buried in my chest.

I wish I could tell you. Because I really would love to exhale right now. But I can't. I can not let myself stumble over there. It gets dark there. I will be blind, I can not allow that. Because you left me there. You will leave me there again. It a matter of seconds, mere moments away.

I took what I could, yet I know it will never be enough. I would just become addicted. And the supply will dry up. It always does.

I just want to sink into the ground. I want to be nothing, because nothing would be quieter, my chest wouldn't be spilling out onto the ground. I wouldn't be drowning in this abyss.

So yes today is a held breath and I can't seem to remember how to let go

I did it myself this time. I took the knife. I stood in front of you and tore open all my wounds. It was cruel of me, to bleed on you. I won't even reach for the first aid kit, I already know it's empty. There will be no more stitches.

Because I'm no longer on the edge. In plummeting already. This time I don't think anybody can stop me. This time I don't think I even want someone to try.

But I will leave behind a wonderful mess.