u/No_Cause_9038

the anxiety and flashbacks (from people making fart noises, covering their noses, fidgeting around to be subtle, talking behind my back, making faces, etc.) are coming back. im humiliated thinking back. its all. i. ever. think. about. id be so happy if i didnt have this. its even mire tough when i want to ppl friends and be social but resort to self isolation bc i feel bad for even being in their vicinity and making them smell me. ;( in hs btw.

idk what happened but this year has been my lowest due to gas incontinence. and it is not lole i can js straight ip tell people bc its embarrassing. its not like if i had a medical condition like TMAU where ur skin smells and u can be like its bc of that its bc im farting without realizing it. 🥲 if anyone have any advice im open ears.

Im a female in HS and ever since this school year has started I've been having digestive and stomach issues I'd never have before. I have IBS and gastritis, so now I'm almost always constipated, strain, have diarrhea, incomplete bowel movements (like there is always residue), cannot hold my farts ever, and I have ALOT of gas. I have had a colonoscopy and it came out with no intolerances.

Here is what happens every school day:

I feel anxious bc ik people will smell me (prob making it worse), go to class, my stomach feels pressure when I sit, don't rlly feel anything going out like a fart but feel warmth, SOMETIMES- but for the most part cant- smell something like a fart, have to sit there for an hour with people cover their noses, fidget with their nose to be subtle, heavy breathing, and the worst- fart noises and comments bc apparently its very very often. And even when i can actually feel a fart forming, i cant hold it in and it seeps out and i still cant smell it and this is very often so imagine the ones i cant feel.

It is extremely weird bc ill js be standing or sitting and smell it at school and be like was that me bc i couldnt feel it but ik i give off the smell of farts. I am now extremely self conscious and sad.

I've started to skip some of my classes where im sitting so close to guys or people ik that will make it obvious that it smells just bc it is so unbearable and hard to focus. Im not even like mad at them for it bc its understandable i would react the same too if i were them but i js wish they knew i cant control it. This issue has also made me distance myself from my friends in class and makes me even more depressed bc i want to talk to them but i dont want to make them suffer by sitting next to me. Its so awful bc its not like ppl are js "bullying" or making fun of me bc im ugly or "weird" which doesnt rlly effects the person, the bully is js doing it to be mean, its something that effects them too (probably making harder for them to focus too) and they prob js think im disgusting and so weird for not hold it in like a normal person. BTW this is def not a certain ppl tryna bully me thing bc it will be random students and i can see in their face they're trying to keep composure and be nice but cant stand the smell.

The thing is I am always dismissed by the doctors like oh thats not possible and my not even my parents believe me bc they've never experienced it. Ive searched up online and it said that incomplete bowels could make a person smell like poop or farts so prob that too.

This is an extremely distressing and distracting thing to live with because I dont feel happy at school or at home bc my parents are very strict and dont let me out that much but it doesnt even matter if they would bc ive been losing my friends and I dont want to hang out where we're mostly sitting down eating or smth. It also sucks bc now that im eating less to hopefully help my stomach not be so gassy my mom thinks i have an ED or smth and forces me to eat even if ik its going to make my stomach have bubble guts or be super gassy. Its extremely hard to do schoolwork in class so im falling behind. I dont even like looking up to look at the screen in fear of seeing ppl to the side of me covering their nose and spraying perfume. I also never talk to people next to me bc ik that they know im "farting" every other minute so its js so awkward and humiliating. Idk if anyone can relate but im js putting this out there.