i hate myself
i genuinely hate myself so much like it's not even a joke anymore. i'm such a fat fucking chud with nothing better to do in life but rot in bed and stay isolated, and the worst part is that i want to change for the better. i've been with my boyfriend for 2 years now (yayy) and he's always been reassuring me that i'm pretty but i can't find myself to believe it or even try to accept it. i've struggled with body image since i was a kid and no matter how much i try to change, i'm always so ugly. i feel bad for my boyfriend because i truly don't want to bring myself down but i just can't find anything in me to be happy about and i sound like a total cuck coming online and disclosing my problems but i really have no one else to vent to and i don't want to burden my boyfriend even more with complaints about my looks or myself in general
i truly do hate myself