u/No_Excuse_3173

In the stars body lotion was priced at around 1500-1600 and now it's 2200 😭😭😭😭

Why has bbw gotten so expensive 😭😭😭

I wanna order but the price is making me cry

I am very socially anxious and it's all very very scary to me. I start next week and need suggestions.

What to look out for, what to do, how to navigate the first few days (I have been preparing my introduction as if I am a 5 year old because I am worried).

I am just really worried.

Also I have never owned a handbag and carrying a laptop bag on the first day seems like a lot specially when it will be empty 😭

I also have never worn formals and it's all scaring me so so much and my anxiety is all over the place.

Heard there is an induction too and I have 0 clue how that works.

Please share some advice/essentials/anything I should order etc etc

I just feel shame. Fell behind in career. Never was liked by anyone, never put myself out there because deep down I knew no one was going to choose me. No one ever wanted to talk to me either or noticed me.

Now I am 26, and the people who seem or well seemed conservative have also experienced intimacy and also had sex. And yes obviously my fault for stereotyping but I used to think maybe a good chunk of people haven't had sex but I was dead wrong. (Please don't take this the wrong way!)

And I don't know why, but lately I just feel so much shame about this. I have never experienced a kiss, or held hands, let alone sex. And everyone around me has had all of it and more.

Entering the arrange marriage manosphere with this makes me anxious too because I worry that maybe they will only want me because of the virginity factor and I hate thinking about it so much.

And I don't know why I feel the need to clarify but I am not conservative and I am not a prude but I hate I seem like one. And also that being labeled like a prude feels like a abuse.

I just feel ugly.

Same as title.