Specific jealousy
Does anyone else feel a specific jealousy and anger towards people who originally didn't want to have children or were indifferent and then changed their mind and then got pregnant right away (and had a successful birth and a baby)?
It's especially bad when it is people who were very loud about being childfree or laughed at people who wanted children or wanted them young.
I feel like a dick when I feel like this because having children is such a blessing and I feel like a fraud because even though I deal with infertility, I am so blessed that I have step children.
But does anyone else have this very specific jealousy and anger? Like the people who always dreamt of a family and had no trouble getting pregnant I can deal with (I also feel like often they are more grateful and didn't take it for granted) but the ones who proudly shouted childfree by choice and then changed their mind one day and stood with a baby 9 months later, I can't always deal with 😭😂