Life after betrayal & divorce
My ex husband cheated on me with my friend. We got married in November of 2022 while he was in the middle of his affair to only find out 3 months after our wedding about his affair. I ask myself all the time why god let me go through this marriage after being together for 8 years and two kids later he decides to start up an affair months before our wedding. I was devastated and stayed for two years fighting for what we had while he chased another woman. I learned a lot of lessons.
Being divorced and trying to date has been so disappointing. I’m only 32 F and I fear I may never trust again or find love again.
The mistress moved on to another man and she has let my ex go..that I know of. He’s been back and forth with me for a year now about how he wants his family back and how mad he is at himself for what he did.
I keep questioning god and his intentions. How could someone do me so dirty and yet I can’t set the right boundaries to make him go away.
I pray all the time for a new love to come into my life, to show me hope, to let me know that all the pain and hurt I went through was worth it.
Why has this cycle been so hard on me. I’m trying to stay positive but this is hard especially when kids are involved. I’ve let myself hang around him with the kids involved. We sit together at sport games, we’ve gone out to dinner with the kids. I hate that I allow it but I sit alone so much that I crave someone. I fear that somethings wrong with me because I can’t let it go. I go between missing him to hating him. I don’t think I could ever fully recover from what he did but yet I still let him hang around at times. We live in separate homes so we don’t hang out all the time but I do slip up.
Just looking for a little bit of positive advice, and that I’m not alone in this back-and-forth mindset.