L4-S1 Fusion
First time ever posting. 31 year old male. I am staring a L4-S1 fusion in the face currently. Have a 3rd opinion appointment next month which I believe will be my last appointment before making a final decision. Currently have a L4-L5 and L5-S1 herniation, both lateral herniations as well. Also have DDD at both as well. I've lost every meaning of living my life. Been doing PT for around 6 weeks now and all it's done is make things worse. I was very active prior to this. Went from working out and running 30 miles a week to spending everyday after work on my living room floor. I know receovery is long. I'm already terrified of surgery and I have never been more scared of something in my life. I have cried more in the last week than I have in all of my life. Anyone out there with positivity for me, it would be greatly appreciated. Please no negative comments bc I don't think I can mentally take anymore negative things. Looking for all the hope and positivity I can get right now.