struggling to empathize/understand emmy & it’s affecting me watching
okay i’m not a typical poster but i need to understand what im missing. i’m on season 4 episode 11 currently and for two whole seasons now, we have seen emmy lie, play victim, dodge accountability, and have numerous panic attacks just because someone calls her out. like she’s not even getting yelled at or attacked, people just explain what she’s done and she immediately starts hyperventilating. i have like no empathy whatsoever and im honestly really tired of seeing her on my screen like i love that most of the cast can fight and make up but her continuous need to claim she’s done nothing and make everyone else the problem like really makes it a hard watch as a viewer esp when she gets sm screen time bc she keeps lying and having panic attacks and taking every little thing someone does as a personal attack. i feel like they should remove her from the show honestly, but i know that probably won’t happen and she probably brings viewers in but i find that hard to believe when everyone ik cant stand her. like what the fuck is her deal? and she was not like this in season one like it’s insane regression. on top of that, ik when struggling w eds (not saying she’s ana but ik her workout regimen and diet and body are all like a high priority for her now) it can affect your mental and ik she said she’s unmedicated this season (fucking clearly) so i’m trying to give grace as someone who also struggles w ed/bipolar but genuinely like WHAT is wrong w her? like i wonder does she watch the show back and see what people mean or if she’s aware of her own lying or if she has genuinely convinced herself of every new narrative she spins. i’m just so confused and it’s easy when i’m able to see where someone’s coming from but like this is worse than watching scheana shay. like this is a new level of wtf is this person and i just want to understand her a little more so i can bare her enough to keep watching but like damn idk if i could deal w her for any more seasons. and im not trying to hate like she’s human and everyone has their own flaws and im not saying any of the cast is perfect but like genuinely i just want to understand what the actual hell is up w her brain