Beginning to worry that I’m significantly more kinky than my partner
My partner (28m) and I (31f) have been together for three years, and we’ve always been relatively kinky, more than most couples I’d say. Light breeding, spanking, choking, etc. The sex is overall great and he is the most amazing partner, but I’m starting to worry that I crave a lot more than he can give me.
We’ve had a few conversations about what I want, which is basically to be completely dominated and used by him. Punishments, bondage, impact play, cnc, free use, etc. I fantasize about a dom/sub dynamic almost constantly. I’ve even told him that I would love to be collared/permanently marked in some way.
He is very open minded and has always been supportive when having these discussions, but I don’t think he’s taking it as seriously as I’m intending. After we have these conversations, he will try to do what I want, but the effort feels weak and I can tell he’s only doing it because I asked him to, when what I want is for him to want to do it, y’know?
Maybe I’m being to picky, and I should just be grateful for the fact that I have an amazing man who loves me. But I have this gnawing feeling that it will never be enough and I will always crave more. I also listen to a lot of Quinn audios and read smut to try and scratch the itch, but it feels like a bandaid solution.
Any advice on how I can talk to him (again) and try to make more of an impact? Or advice on satisfying my needs (without infidelity) would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks, freaks 💕💕