u/No_Satisfaction_6478

I have been saved for about 5 years but my life within those five years did not always glorify the Lord! A month ago, I started a new church and the sermon was about sanctification and I got convicted and decided to turn my habits again. No more sex outside of marriage, no more cussing and no more gossiping( my kryptonite). I just looked at my habits and realized most secular people wouldn’t take me seriously as a Christian by the way I live my life; I was going to church and Bible study but still living for the world. After I started making this change, I got horrible anxiety and thoughts in my head. Like “ why are you worshipping a man?” “ this is all fairytale stuff” “ why do you even need religion?” I have never had these thoughts in the past five years so I am so confused on where it’s coming from. I have encountered Christ. He freed me from a 5 year porn addition, freed me from tarot and witchy stuff, got me into law school with a 75% scholarship when everyone on Reddit and in my life told me it would not be possible. He broke family and generational curses and witchcraft place on us from my African family members. I have seen God work but I don’t know where these thoughts are coming from. My insta and music is mostly Christian content and I have been fasting and praying for a week now until I get baptized in the middle of July. I don’t want these thoughts anymore. I just want to go back to the way things were.

*not a pastor

I was saved five years ago, but after getting saved, my life/habits did not reflect it despite going to church, praying, reading my Bible, and going to youth group. Last month, I started going to a new church, and the sermon that day was more about becoming like Christ (sanctification). And after that, I have decided to change my habits. I am rewaiting until marriage, I am no longer cussing, I am finding more time to pray and read my Bible throughout the day, and I am getting baptized next month. BUT ever since I made these changes, I have just been battling with my mind. There is a silly little voice telling me Jesus isn't real. I know He is real. He has done great things in my life. In the name of Jesus, demonic cult curses from my grandmother were broken. This wasn't human will but God's. I know this is spiritual warfare, but I have never experienced warfare like this. Usually, it's allowing people/things into my life that created a gap between Jesus and me, quitting halfway through a fast, or doubting if I would ever succeed… but never like this, where I am doubting the WHOLE basis of my faith. I am currently fasting and praying until I get baptized, but please drop any Bible verses or sermons that will help me in this fight.

* I also stopped listening to secular music and changed my social media algorithm to only reflect Christian content, so I am guarding my ears, eyes, and mind.

Thank you!