u/No_Sea7681

I'm a 37 year old virgin and I cannot, no matter what I do, attract a woman. I don't fucking understand how this is supposed to work. What do I do? Where do I go? Nothing ever works for me, they just aren't interested. I bathe and don't smell, I'm not morbidly obese, I have a full time job and function like an adult. I'm not super weird or mean and I don't harass anyone. I try to be friendly and courteous and get to know people. I have no initial expectations.... it just doesn't happen and I don't know what to do about it. I'm getting too old and I don't want to wait any longer, but I don't know what it is I'm supposed to be doing. I am so dreadfully sick and tired of being me at the moment that I'd rather just blow my fucking brains out.

I was looking at myself in the mirror before a shower and I don't like how I look. I don't really recognize myself. I look old now and I've come to the conclusion that I am a biological failure, a genetic dead end. I'm 37 and have never been in a relationship, never had sex and don't have what society would consider a real career.

I've had people ask me if I'm married or if I have kids and the obvious answer is always no. They ask me why and what am I supposed to say? It doesn't matter because even if I have wanted these throughout my life, it has never been an option? I wasn't able to effectively compete with other men. So congratulations, you've won. You guys got the women and the good jobs. I'm old looking, fat, my hair is thinning, I don't have an attractive occupation. It's over and it's too late.

I now know that all that's left to look forward to in life is rapid bodily deterioration associated with aging and bouncing back and forth between an empty, cheap apartment and some dead end job. This will continue until I get fed up and end myself or I die of outside causes. I'll be the old guy sitting in a single bedroom with the window open listening to children playing outside. The old guy standing off to the side in a public place secretly listening to the conversations of strangers always wondering what life could have been like if I didn't fail at the most basic of levels.

I just don't fucking get it. What am I missing that other men have?

I'm 37 year old virgin, no relationships, never been on a date. There is absolutely no meaning at all to life. I don't know what I did wrong to end up like this. Both of my siblings are married, one is older and one is younger. When you're constantly alone, there really is no reason to exist. To be honest I don't even know why I go to work. What's the fucking point of saving money? I don't want anything money can buy, I don't care about stuff. I can sever an artery right now and bleed out and it would make absolutely no difference to anything. I don't want to live like this anymore, but I don't have a choice, what the hell am I supposed to do? Women are constantly on my mind. Any women around my age I come into contact with are married with kids. Do I just say fuck it and dive into alcohol or drugs as a distraction until I die? I'm too fucking old with no options.

I'm a 37 year old virgin and I have never been on a date. I currently rent a bedroom in a family member's house and I work nights stocking shelves at a grocery store. I am not happy in life at all. I live in a small town surrounded by the same and it's so difficult to find a decent job anywhere. I have about 19k in my savings account and a credit score over 800. I don't know what to do with myself. My entire life is dedicated to this dead end grocery store job as I have nothing else. I get up at 7pm, shower by 8:30 and start work at 10pm. I get off at 7 am, go home and binge eat, then I am in bed watching youtube videos until I fall asleep. That is my life in its entirety and has been for many years. I don't know what to do or how to do it. I often forget that there is life outside of work. I fantasize about women and wish I was an attractive man, but I'm not. I know that at this age I will likely die never having experienced a relationship. I'm about 6 shots deep in a bottle of rum at the time of posting this, but that doesn't change anything. I don't know what to do with myself and often wish I would just drop dead.

I'm 37, no family, never dated, virgin. No matter what I try to do in life it all just feels absolutely pointless. I work nights right now and have for a few years. I get up, bathe and go to work. I come home and I sit in my bedroom until it is time to go back to work. I live for my dead end job. My nights off I sit in my bedroom and wish I was back at work. Sometimes I want to go somewhere, but there is nowhere to go and nothing for me to do.

Once a week I meet up with a former coworker and we drink. It has grown stale and I no longer enjoy these moments, but I go anyway because I have nothing better to do. I read a lot, mostly nonfiction because I like to learn. That too feels like a dead end. I'm not suicidal, but I just don't care if I am injured and often times I want to injure myself our of frustration. I am not happy and I do not like who I am. I live in a small town that I feel trapped in. I work a night shift job I feel trapped in. I live in a bedroom that I feel trapped in.