u/No_Sheepherder4400

Depression or anxiety maybe?

Does anyone else experience intense fear and stress when they have to leave the house? I barely leave the house anymore unless I absolutely have to as I've had really nasty comments when I've been in public. I constantly feel like I'm on the lookout for the next person who is going to humiliate me, every laugh I think is at my expense. I worry about the physical side too, like falling and people filming.

I hate it so much and I miss seeing friends and family because of it. A therapist said to wear headphones when in public but it doesn't stop me worrying that I will have just missed the comments and laughing, plus for some reason wearing headphones makes me so out of breath (don't understand that part at all!! I even had that when I was slim).

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u/No_Sheepherder4400 — 7 days ago

Sorry for posting again, you have all been massively helpful. I had been following some advice on weight loss and introducing some exercise to try to lose weight recently but found myself getting really overwhelmed and ended up falling back down in a binging way (I stopped answering the messages when I failed as I was embarrassed but I am very thankful for all the advice and I've read everything). I think I tried to push off with a bit more than I could cope with and it pushed me back into struggling with binging and restricting again.

I have type 2 diabetes and I think the binging hasn't helped my sugar control - my hba1c is pretty high as it is and my levels after a binge get very high. I keep feeling nauseous, shaky, my heart races and my oxygen drops after a binge (I'm obviously trying to stop but it is easier said than done). Is this normal for high blood sugar? I don't want to speak to a doctor as I dread going but will do if it is something that likely needs checking out, I have an appointment soon anyway.

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u/No_Sheepherder4400 — 20 days ago

Hello, you guys were so helpful with my previous post I thought I would ask this question here.

I don't exercise, I actually find walking from room to room can make me out of breath. Stairs are incredibly difficult and take quite some time to recover from. I am basically really unfit and don't know where to start. I feel ridiculous posting this as I assume I just need to push through but I end up feeling like I can't breathe and can get palpitations where it feels so weird and it stresses me out.

I can't go swimming or use a pool. I see videos of people who have lost so much weight absolutely killing it in the gym and I just feel too big to even leave the house. I don't want anyone to see me, let alone be seen trying (and potentially failing) to exercise. I have a fear of falling in public as I need something to support me to get up from the floor so really avoid going out, especially as I've had my ankle give out a couple of times recently and that is making me so much more nervous about this. I'm so scared of people seeing how limited I have become if I'm entirely honest about how I'm feeling.

Then I try to tell myself that weight loss is mainly diet so I just need to focus on that instead of exercise, but then I'm not sure that is the best plan. Has anyone been in a similar position and gone from no exercise to even just incorporating some? I do have a couple of health conditions, but was told I could push my HR to 140 but was too embarrassed to say that is my HR with walking short distances already, although maybe that is a sign I should just be doing short distances regularly until it improves? I basically don't know what I'm doing, and I don't want to do nothing, but I'm worried about doing things wrong and hurting myself.

Sorry for the ramble, I don't really talk about things like this, I tend to just pretend everything is fine!

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u/No_Sheepherder4400 — 24 days ago