My cancer doctor told me today, that my cancer is back, and it’s spreading to the right side now. The worst part is that I have to go through all this alone..
Is that wrong? Just man, somehow I was NOT designed to interact with, or befriend people!! I get along with animals just fine.. if their owners.. piss me off. Anyone! What’s wrong with me???
I have been bipolar my whole life. I am 53. I have severe chronic PTSD, ADHD, and everyone thinks that I’m on the spectrum, but I can’t get anyone to test me for it. While I usually have bad manic episodes, but lately… it’s been really bad depression.. as in, the last 4 years.
Last year, and this year have been the worst. Last year, I almost died twice, due to surgeries going awry. Then, I had to fight cancer. I beat it, but then this year, I discovered that I had an immune disorder that attacks the skin in my genitalia. That answers a lot of questions, but it destroys any hope of ever finding a partner in life. I don’t think I have ever been or felt so worthless in my whole life. I can’t work anymore, so I’m so bored and lonely.