u/NotsoCoolguy2

I've been really confused about my sexual and romantic preferences for years. For context, I am male.

I've grown up in a very supportive environment (gay and trans extended family members), so exploration was always ok. I never felt shame for my identity, but I do feel shame about the possibility I may be lying to my family and friends. A family member of mine was at a pride protest the other day, and mentioned me. I felt a bubble of doubt In my stomach, and I struggle to live.

When I found myself being solely attracted to women as I grew older and fell into a transition stage, I decided I was straight, although i always had an aesthetic appreciation for men. Then, my preferences switched, and I found myself mostly attracted to men. Currently, I'm In the middle, where I find myself excited by both men and women equally, although I feel guilty whenever I find myself choosing women. What if I'm straight and lying? I have a few kinks where I mostly prefer women to be on the other side, but I like men when it comes to irl pairings and romance, as well as basic intercourse. It's vulgar, but I also enjoy both men and women when it comes to adult material. Straight, or nah?

If it's any information, I have OCD and a tendency to overthink.