why are my own friends doing this to me?
i know this might not seem deep but it’s really affecting me right now and i don’t know what to do anymore. i am biracial (my mom was black and my dad is white). i grew up in a predominantly white area in Europe and seeing black or mixed people was and still is very rare. as a kid, i got used to hearing white people making comments on my skin tone or my hair and even calling me the N word and i still get called the hard R in high school. the problem is all of my friends are white and all of them have at least called me the N word once or joked about my appearance including my best friend of 8 years. what nobody seems to understand is that every time they call me stuff like that and joke about me, i tend to become more and more distant with them. it is extremely isolating knowing that i can’t talk about it to anyone and that only my online friends seem to understand.
has anyone else been in this type of situation or is it really just me? am i overreacting? ://