u/Nuclear-soul

I need it.

(For context) I’m a junior in high school. Around 8th grade I met this girl who I would end up dating for Around one year before it hit the fan. She was my first love and ever since we broke up. she’s never left my heart all together.

To make it worse I also currently have a girlfriend of nearly two years. I feel awful for still missing my then-girlfriend (Let’s call her J)

J and I met and instantly hit it off. We had the same humor and everything. For a good amount of time our relationship felt relatively really perfect. Fights every here and then. usual things, But nothing crazy. Then after awhile things got shady. And we ended up taking a break. At that time I didn’t think much of it. (or how much it would affect me) And we went out separate ways for around 3 months. Then after that we had started talking and decided to get back together. Which also ended with her doing some pretty messed up things to both me and my friends. At first I felt fine about it. But it started itching at me after a time. I’m not even sure what it is about her, to be completely honest I was severely depressed and had some major suicidal ideation when we were together. Recently i’ve started to feel a little better about the situation (not missing her as much, being okay with how things went etc) However no matter what I still find myself missing her from time to time. How do I really START getting over her? im scared that i’ll never get over her. and that I will never feel the same about my now girlfriend. Im stuck.