I’m on the brink of losing my shit
hi im f24 living currently with my bf m28 and i cant do it anymore. i cant keep doing this with him. i dont know why i continued this relationship when i have seen so many red flags.
i just kept continuing. i got into this relationship after being in one for 3 1/2 years, literally 3 months after.
i’ve been in this relationship for 3 1/2 years (will be in june) and im planning my escape.
i’ve been waiting too long to pull the trigger and it’s just it’s the worst time for me to be doing this now but i feel like i have no choice.
we have two trips coming up. basically for him and im just tagging along as his girlfriend. i paid for one trip he paid for the other. i paid $1300 for a roundabout plan about and he paid approximately the same for one week stay with a group of his friends at some cabin.
i was thinking about giving him two months rent (which is $900) and i would pay utilities this month (as usuall lmao) i would split the tickets, cancel mine and give him his
see number one reason why i want to leave him is because he won’t get a full time job. he wants to buy a house with me as i would have a full time job, who do you think the bank is going to rely on more? he says he won’t get a full time job because he enjoys his free time.. meanwhile i did have an 8-5 all day job, remote. but i was stuck on a headset all day, listening to angry customers. and just when all i wanted was a break, i would see him downstairs just eating, sprawled out, enjoying his fucking time. while he works an 5am -9am job
i have finally figured it out tho. i can be angry all i want but i can’t change someone. he has had his job for 5 years, i did have my job for 3 years. he loves his job and he wouldn’t leave it if he wouldn’t want to
i did quit my job just recently in march. mentally, i couldn’t do it anymore. i couldn’t deal with the phone calls, i cant deal with this life i have living here.
it’s time to get out. im ready and going to stay single for a very very long time.