u/Obvious_Garlic_1914

Hello. Does anyone here have any osint tools that can be used to track or find information of people in mainland china?

Hello. Does anyone here have any osint tools that can be used to track or find information of people in mainland china?

Okay. To clear things up I'm only doing this to satisfy my personal guilt. 19m

So I met this friend at an event and we became quite good friends. Basically we were extremely close, would call all the time tgt and stuff. I also shared with her a lot of my extremely personal stuff, including some trauma. (Note that I probably suffer from some childhood trauma that I'm working on, and I over shared alot) However she was completely fine with it. Moreover, she said she liked/enjoyed hearing it and was definitely there for me. I also tried it be there for her such as helping her out with difficult stuff she didn't know and just being her friend in general. (She really didn't give me a lot of stuff hehe...I feel guilty for not being able to help her)

So recently we had met up irl (and we're planning to meet again) and hugged and cuddled alot. Still all completely platonic. Afterwards, some time later I was talking to another girl I met at the event and told her what had happened. I am under the assumption that she told her friend, who was this girls friend who then shared it with all of this girl's friend group. I believe that they became concerned for her and we'll prob said I was creepy and stuff. Apparently they were cautious around men and thought she was dating me.

Well she was extremely pissed off until is hared with her the screenshots and well she then like calmed down and realized the misunderstanding.

However, at the same time I think her friends wanted her to stop coming in contact with me and shit, so teg literal next day after the big thing, she talked to me and said we probably should stop calling each other and meeting up/dial it back alot. At this stage I was already quite emotionally attached to her (def asshole for me already, sorry) and then we'll just offered to cut contact. When they friends had talked to the girl when they thought I was dating her, I had already offered to cut contact, bit just couldn't do it. She was a rather close friend of mine already, and it just felt terrible on my part. Moreover, during the friendship she(the exact night of the event, how ironic) I was talking to her about how shitty I could be and she started saying that i was her safe person and stuff. (Throughout the entire friendship I would frequently remind her. No I'm not a safe person. My friendships usually end quickly, I'm not a nice person...etc) Well when we were talking about what to do afterwards she just confessed when I asked her if she still felt safe and she said, yeah probably not anymore.that genuinely hurt me a lot. Plus the dynamic was noticeably a lot more different and I also no longer felt safe.

We went back and forth a bit and I just wanted to cut contact. But I still like her enough to not want to. I knew that the dynamic was broken though.

Soooo I sent this serious of texts (I'm pretty sure I was melting down. They sound quite asholish)

(They sound incredibly stupid, also during the friendship she asked me to share random trivia)

really did let myself hope huh

: Well I still don't understand how it all broke down

\[: But well I guess it's fate

\[ Did I do anything wrong?

\[I don't know

\[ : I would give it around 2 months(the friendship)

\[Well, I really did let myself hope didn't I.

I guess

I renamed you

A fleeting belief in what could have been

: And well, here's one last piece of trivia I'll give you I guess

: Did you know that traumatized people are extremely likely to self sabotage even if (especially) given the love that they needed.

These people are a lot more likely to commit behaviors that destabilize themselves because chaos is all they have known.

Love and comfort is so foreign they don't feel comfortable about it, maybe even scared.

They may do it subconsciously and consciously. They probably won't realize it.

However the knowledge of self sabotage is incredibly distressing to these people.

: I don't understand where I went wrong.

I guess I should have kept quiet about the friendship.

Maybe I shouldn't have given so much in

And I would like to apologise

\[: I am sorry for having to rely on you. Having to make you listen to me vent all the time. I'm sorry I wasnt able to help you more. I'm sorry for sharing all of my issues and causing you to feel my own burden. I'm sorry for making you think I was safe. I'm sorry I'm writing all of this out of perhaps bitterness and perhaps a wish that none of this happened. I'm sorry this sounds like a guiltrrip. I'm sorry that I have been writing all of this even though I know it could hurt you, or it won't and I think too highly of myself. I'm sorry for being immature, and not the older more mature mentor I was supposed to be.

I'm sorry for projecting myself on to you. I'm sorry for being in your life.

: You are a truly nice and sweet person and I hope you will understand that. I hope you can in fact remember that. Thank you for being here for me, whatever little time it has been. Thank you for being in my life and tolerating me.

: I told you so

\[ So many times

And I guess I'm probably just angry at my own disappointment. I'm angry at grief of losing a good friend. That I'm reacting so terribly. I'm angry that I expected all of this to happen yet still let it happen.

Thank you for confirming my suspicions. I guess I'll treat this lesson as one on friendship. I've learnt it. Too many times. But thank you for teaching me it again.

None of this is your fault. I know. But I'm sorry for blaming you

: I'm sure you realize how fucking funny those words you said last night were

: How ridiculous they were

I'm pretty sure you regret all of that now don't you

Don't lie. Please. Don't insult and underestimate my intelligence.

I'm just tired.

: We are, all of us, just visitors, in each other's lives.

Goodbye

Of course then again this could have just been another test concocted by your friends to test if I was deserving to be in your life, one which I have failed, spectacularly. You must be rather disappointed for I have revealed my true colours

I'm a decent player that has played arena breakout on and off, recently I came over from delta force. I'm really curious why MPX is considered meta, what kind of bullets to use with it, and stuff like that. Plus why is the media for arena breakout so under saturated and outdated, most of the stuff is like 1 year old already, so I have no idea what the techniques and all the gimmics/mechanics are. And also whats even meta?