u/OceanOreo44

I need some help or some advice. When I was a kid I was raised in a negative household so my vibration was low enough to attract attachments. I had a pretty nasty one I had removed via reiki. It gave me disturbing intrusive thoughts that are not mine and the thoughts still linger. I had the attachment for 3 years so it did so much damage to my energy body. I’m still needing soul retrievals done. I have been to a few people but it did not help. I don’t think they were legit. But anyway, it feels like a nasty thick hook that burns where my sacral is. I’ve tried removing it I’ve tried meditating on it, but it’s not budging. It has made me so depressed and lost.

Has anyone experienced demonic possession before? This happened to me when I was 19, had it removed by a healer at 21. (now 25) and still suffering from the trauma. It wanted me to “off”myself. Pushed my thoughts, Identity, and soul out of my body. I had the most disturbing intrusive thoughts imaginable and it made me identify with that from guilt. I always knew it was not me and the thoughts went away when it got removed. I had to have multiple soul retrieval healings from a shamanic healer to pull myself back into my body. I still feel scared to open my energy back up. I live in a bubble and speak to nobody and don’t talk about this. When I do I start feeling icky like I’m going to attract it back to me. My life has been ruined by this and my life has been so dramatic. So much bad luck and series of events. Raising my vibration has felt impossible I feel stuck in the past. I do not want to give up on myself.