Fear or intuition?
i recently got diagnosed with ROCD after struggling with symptoms for quite awhile. for a bit of context, I have had a rough past with relationships and whatnot. recently I found myself catching feelings and starting a relationship for a new person after not dating or exploring anything for a year, and I’m caught in a rut.
for further context I’ve had my last relationships id be with them and think they were “the one” and it’ll “last forever” etc all that cliche. but this new relationship he’s done everything and more right. he’s treated me so much better than I’ve ever been in the past. he’s healthy, he communicates, he doesn’t make me beg for the bare minimum and he’s so respectful of me and my boundaries. that doesn’t even cover the good he’s done and how he is.
the problem is, eveytime I’m with him my body is like no this isn’t right oh he isn’t the one. Ive had moments where panic feels like intuiton, and I know intuition tends to be quiet. the feelings I’ve been having is a fear driven panicking “knowing“
im not quite sure if this feeling Ive had is because im not used to the calm or the peace and good he’s offering or whatnot. I want it to work between him and I hes also a dear friend of mine and I’d hate to lose what we have.
I’m not directly asking for advice or reassurance as I know that isn’t helpful with how our brains work but just a general curiosity if anyone else has dealt with this before