SKL na 1.5 months na ako sa new work ko and I'm starting to feel anxious if I was really deserving to have this job
I'm 37 Female and i used to work for an NGA (National Government Agency) and now I'm still working for another NGA, but on a foreign funded one.
The pay is good, around an 80% increase compare to my previous job. It was a blessing lalo na sa pag taas ng mga bilihin ngayon. But of course with a change of jobs, come changes din sa environment, sa co workers, sa dynamics and, sa mga pag uugali.
After 1.5 months, I just feel drained and I dont think that what I've applied and left my job of 6 years for was worth it. It feels like naghahabol ako sa mga bagay na hindi ko alam, lalo na na nag onboard ako sa kanila at such a crucial time na meron silang hinahabol na project to be approved by july. Since kakaumpisa ko plng, I'm also trying to do my best to deliver before ang deadline. But there are so many things I dont know, and I also ask my coworkers kng anong gawin, but it also comes with judgement na para bang, dapat alam ko na ang sagot sa tanong ko.
They gave me 4 projects to handle, since this is project based di sya kagaya sa normal office na merong supervisor na titingin ng gawa mo. So ang nangyayari, do the job the best way that you know. Kng ano man ang results, then that is the output that you can deliver.
I think I'm really not suited for this job. Takot din ako na umalis kasi wala naman akong lilipatan and at my age, kaya ko bang mag start again?
Baka sepanx lng to sa dati kong trabaho pero parang hindi din. This weekend just feels so draining. Lunes bukas pero parang ayaw ko pumasok.
I need some advise please. I'm just drowning in my own thoughts sometimes and I feel hopeless sa ngayon.