u/Odd_Presence_3174

Not sure how many here feel the same. Since yesterday I've been feeling in a weird denial-acceptance state, I don't know how to explain it. Going on his social media profiles makes me feel so in denial, like I don't want to believe it but I know he's passed. I feel like it's so unfair, in all his videos he was so funny, so full of life. I just don't want to believe he is truly gone.

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(this isn't a conspiracy post, btw. Just wanted to share my feelings)

I'm not sure how many non-native English speakers are here, but I'd like to talk about this

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I'm not a native English speaker, but learning to talk fluently can open doors for me in my country. While I have learned to write and read, my speech sucks. Nobody around me talks it fluently to practice either. While formal english classes would be good, those also require one of my biggest fears which is talking infront of the class. I've read that you NEED to talk to people who speak it fluently and practice. I've been recommended to join Discord calls and practice, but I am terrified of being clowned XD. Even if I know it would be good ERP, I don't think I would be able to do it.

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Anybody else experiencing this? Are there any other options to practice?

First post here so I'm sorry if this has already been asked (or if it doesn't fit in the sub)

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While sometimes I get brave, playing competitive games, especially the ones where you have a team, always have made me so terribly anxious. I have stopped playing games I love because they require you to be good at them. I have a terrible fear of failure and being judged tbh. I remember some time ago I forced myself to play and I became all sweaty and anxious when the game was searching for other players for a match. One of my dreams when getting a Laptop was playing Dead By Daylight but I can't since I'm so scared of entering a match.