autistic brother needs to go to a home
i’m (f16) and i’m so tired of living with my autistic brother (f13). i don’t hate him, but it’s a little less than love. my brother will never be able to speak, use the bathroom by himself, cook his own meals etc. he is severely autistic and low functioning. he destroys everything. my house has many holes in the walls that were caused by him. he throws things around. he has huge tantrums that can last for hours. i understand he’s suffering, but i am too. im embarrassed of him, i don’t tell friends about him, so im never allowed to have people over.
i’m scared he will get violent towards the rest of my family as he gets older. there is little hope for my brother, i’ve read that autistics who don’t speak aftera certain age most likely never will. i think he needs to be put into a home for this type of stuff where they have “better ways to handle him” but i know my parents are terrified of him being abused. he wouldn’t be able to verbalize it, and that IS terrifying. i don’t think they expect me to take on the role of caretaker for him, but i really don’t know what they’ll do when they pass on (they’re old- almost 60).
i’m just so drained living here. i’m writing this at 3 am because my brother decided to wake everyone up by banging his head on the damn wall. i’m also scared of having an autistic child. i wouldn’t say that my brother has traumatized me but he definitely did not give me or others in my house a good experience with autism.