Birthday
I have a birthday coming up and in the past I would say I would love, ext… and it really worked! He always came through.
We’ve never done anything that extravagant for our birthdays usually out to dinner.
This year I was hinting that I would love to go to the beach. Well he flat out said that’s not happening, and I don’t know why you would want to plan something like that.
So anyway no beach no biggie I’m sure will get to go another time as a family.
I honestly don’t really know what I want this year. I don’t really care honestly.
I’ve been feeling very apathetic lately.
It just feels like I’ve been trying so much and now I don’t really care honestly.
I feel like I shouldn’t have to state what I want.
I feel like my husband should know how to surprise me after all these years together.
Maybe part of me is tired of stating a Desiree and feeling like it’s just shut down.
Am I asking for too much?
I’ve mentioned multiple times how I would love a night out just the two of us without the kids.
Well it never happens everything we do is together as a family. Which is great I am grateful for that but what about me what about us?
I don’t even what to share my desires because I’m so used to them being dismissed.