u/Ok-Blackberry94

Vulnerable moment here.
Did 6 years 8 months in and then 2 back to back combat deployments which I wanted. Right before my second deployment I was in a dark place, numbing myself with drinking and just sleeping around . The mix of the military life and older trauma was just taking its toll on me. So pre deployment leave I guess had a drunken night , and got someone I know pregnant I personally don’t remember that night but she was sober. So she didn’t tell me anything until right when I was about to deploy. While over seas leadership got in my head saying I need to be a man, marry her and give her insurance hit couldn’t bring myself to do it and she was pissed . She knew I never wanted to have a child with her. I came home from deployment and immediately bombarded with that while trying to adjust to “normality” and getting made to be painted as a bad person because I felt no connection to anyone. Even as the years had gone by I tried being as present as possible only to be met with resistance from her mom n her try to paint me as a pos but will make it hot n cold when it comes to the relationship with the child. Over all I feel no connection towards her n I know I’m not “broken” because I have nieces n nephews that I love with all my heart n would do anything for. I have always been the one son or relative who has lived far away n stays apart from them n left home .And I am trying to do what’s right but idk how to navigate it but I’m constantly made out to be the “deadbeat “ but her mom who gets all the praise has done some pretty fucked things but I try to respect her as much as possible it’s just a constant lose lose at times n peoples only suggestion is go to court . But like I said I feel no connection towards her and just am happy she is safe n fed n in good hands when she sees my family etc even though I still try to be there.

Do things ever change when it comes to feeling that connection? Or is it worth been pursuing ?
I don’t like forcing shit but I’ got so tired of trying that I just stepped away because her mom has threatened my freedom multiple times with calling the police to trespass me

Been reading on n off for a few years, and had random consistent weeks thought I was doin great only to get humbled so I stepped back and going to reassess my approach and take a breather. Now the broker I use is Webull desktop and TV for charting my question is is there any brokers that allow a full integration or I can place the trades and stop loss directly on the stock price chart instead of the options chart? It’s a pain in the ass having to pre load the contract
Switch back to TV
Wait for the set up and then go back to Webull to execute. As well as the stop loss Webull only allows stop loss at the contract price not a specific stock price as well as I have to cancel the stop order before I can sell the contracts so I’m looking for an All in one thing I feel will alleviate some of the hassle and extra steps because it’s a pain
Any recs would be appreciated .

Is there anyway to get rid of these huge welts I get under my skin from injecting KLOW no matter where I get it from they always happen with klow and glow any recommendations on how to alleviate it?

So I’m about to run CJC/IPA/KLOW
MOTS-C
NAD+
SEMAX/ SELANK
Was wondering if the last 4 work better together or a recommendation on how to go about using those

If this violates the guidelines please delete and my apologies. If there was a sub2/ contract for deed in place on a property in CO, the agreement is violated, notice to cure sent and the person doesn't cure it but is stll paying on the property. Does the effected party have any leeway once he sent the termination notice? Can he just sell it with our legal ramifications from the other party? Hypothetically and NOT asking for Advice just curious.

So took my poly this week, she didn’t like the results they “raised concern” then they had me com back in luckily I was able to this week. This time whole different experience it kept sounding like he was trying to trip me up , put words in my mouth, even question my integrity and then would knit pick stuff like
No deep breaths don’t acknowledge me when I ask something don’t lick your lips don’t yawn hold it in all this shit is adding. More pressure and then when he goes over the questions before the test starts and I’m strapped to the chair he said “answer like that and you’re fine, your reading was great” and then during the test goes “eh it’s a little better “ and his whole demeanor changes and is like “if you didn’t lie you should be fine right ?” The whole thing is aggravating especially cause if the test is THAT sensitive shouldn’t you not constantly emphasize why it supposedly work so well ? God damn so idek what to expect my bad was just ranting