can’t stop eating cotton
I’ve had an addiction to eating cotton for about 11 years now. It started out with eating the cotton of the end of q-tips, then I went to cotton rounds. At first, I would spit them out when they started coming apart in my mouth, but eventually I realized I liked the way it felt to swallow them.
I know exactly which brands I like and don’t like, and if I don’t have it at a time when I know I could be eating it I’ll find a store I can get it at as soon as possible. I eat it at home and at work because it’s pretty easy to hide and no one really hangs out around my desk. I don’t do it because I’m trying to not gain weight, I’m just addicted to it. I like the taste and the texture. Every once in a while I’ll get terrified that I’m slowly offing myself. I don’t want to do it anymore but I don’t have any motivation not to. I feel crazy. I feel like everyone knows. I always have a pack in my bag and I’ve only ever been asked once why I buy it so much. The only time I think about quitting is when I get a sore throat and literally can’t eat anything without it hurting, but then the moment I feel better I get right back to it. I’ve never told anyone about this. I haven’t even told my therapist. I just needed to say it somewhere.