I am a university student who has been struggling with compulsive porn use for about 8 years. I have tried to quit many times on my own but keep relapsing. Recently, I have been using porn almost daily, and I feel like I have very little control once the urges or thoughts begin. Specific artists, fantasies, and fetishes often trigger me, and I find myself acting on the urge almost automatically.

This has affected my motivation, productivity, and self-control. I spend a lot of time planning how to improve my life, but I often fail to follow through consistently. I also struggle with excessive YouTube and other digital entertainment, which I use to escape stress and uncomfortable emotions.

I compare myself constantly with other people. Even after achieving a 4.0 GPA, I quickly felt empty because I started comparing myself to people with internships, jobs, or better progress. I often feel like I am "behind" in life, and I tie my self-worth to achievement and success.

I frequently feel mentally exhausted, frustrated, jealous of others, and afraid of wasting my potential. I want to build a career in technology and improve my life, but I feel stuck between wanting to change and repeatedly falling back into old habits.

My main goals are to understand why I keep repeating this cycle, gain better control over my compulsive behaviors, improve my self-discipline, and build a healthier relationship with achievement, comparison, and digital media.

this is all about me.
as you can see i am struggling for 8 year i tried a lot of things but nothing is working now i am just tired and frustrated

I am a university student who has been struggling with compulsive porn use for about 8 years. I have tried to quit many times on my own but keep relapsing. Recently, I have been using porn almost daily, and I feel like I have very little control once the urges or thoughts begin. Specific artists, fantasies, and fetishes often trigger me, and I find myself acting on the urge almost automatically.

This has affected my motivation, productivity, and self-control. I spend a lot of time planning how to improve my life, but I often fail to follow through consistently. I also struggle with excessive YouTube and other digital entertainment, which I use to escape stress and uncomfortable emotions.

I compare myself constantly with other people. Even after achieving a 4.0 GPA, I quickly felt empty because I started comparing myself to people with internships, jobs, or better progress. I often feel like I am "behind" in life, and I tie my self-worth to achievement and success.

I frequently feel mentally exhausted, frustrated, jealous of others, and afraid of wasting my potential. I want to build a career in technology and improve my life, but I feel stuck between wanting to change and repeatedly falling back into old habits.

My main goals are to understand why I keep repeating this cycle, gain better control over my compulsive behaviors, improve my self-discipline, and build a healthier relationship with achievement, comparison, and digital media.

this is all about me.
as you can see i am struggling for 8 year i tried a lot of things but nothing is working now i am just ried and frustrated