Looks like this Friday will be the final EDM night at Captain's Cabin before they close their doors.
Come out and help send it off right. The bass music community isn't going anywhere. Some of you will be pleased to know that Phat Cheetah is already looking for a NEW home for future events!
My husband was lightly into AI last year in the hypomanic lead-up to his first real manic episode. During the worst of his mania/psychosis, he got REALLY into it and started using it to build apps and write lyrics/music. But in his mind, he "learned to code" and "learned to produce music" and it "kept his head together." He also listens to these YouTube "meditation" videos nonstop in his headphones that are I think just AI talking about semi philosophical concepts like breath and oneness.
He's 6 months past the peak of his episode now and mostly seems to have returned to baseline mood wise and he's back to work. He's about a month into taking Abilify (only, and his usual adderall). But he's still using AI all the time.
He started using it to write music. We are in the music industry, throwing EDM events and we're friends with a lot of artists/producers. He's started putting on these AI tracks and he insists he wrote them and learned how to produce music. But it's AI. He gets so upset when I point out they're AI. He looks scary when he's talking about it. Like he's protecting it with his life and he hates anything I say about it.
Before you ask, he won't let me go to his Dr appts or provide any information. He says I'm being controlling and his doctors say he doesn't have bipolar disorder and they say it's "completely unheard of" that I'd want to attend his appointments with him.
I finally called for a consultation with a divorce attorney. I want out of this nightmare. I have no idea who is living in my house any more.
Dress up in circus attire, bring your flow props and come dance with us!
Last Fall when my husband had his first big manic episode cause by Lexapro that started us down this whole path, he had taken out a couple business credit cards from his LLC and was spending on them without me knowing. He's extremely addicted to caffeine and was drinking 2-3 energy drinks per day. He was also buying those big tanks of Nitrous and hiding them from me. It all came to a head when he was in full psychosis at Christmas and we ended up going to emergency psych where he refused treatment.
Fast forward to now, 5 months later. He slowly came down off the psychosis/mania, then seemed hypomanic, and then about a month ago into dark depression. I got about 3 weeks where he was sweet, empathetic, remorseful, and seemed like he was gonna take full accountability and make changes. He's finally on abilify as of a week ago - hes sleeping, eating better, and generall seems the most nornal he's seemed in a long time. But last night I caught him taking money off the counter and going to buy beer with it, then hiding in his shop thinking I didn't know he was drinking out there.
Along this last 5 months we've had many conversations about the betrayal- the lying, addictions, reckless spending. I told him my bottom line was hiding purchases from me. We're in a lot of debt and need to have the same financial goals. Just last week he admitted to me he was back to spending money from his business - debit card this time - to buy energy drinks. He says I'm controlling and scrutinizing him too much. He makes me believe these things. What kind of monster would leave someone as soon as they're finally taking meds?
We've been together 18 years. I told him last night that if he's now the most regulated he's been in a while, he's feeling better, and he's still lying to me, then he's just a shitty person. How did I get here? I need this to end.
It would help to hear from someone who came out the other side of a bipolar relationship. I've been with him since I was 18, we're so codependent I feel like I literally can't leave. But I NEED to. I can't keep doing this.