I keep the used condoms from every guy I sleep with
im 19 and most of my hookups are one time or short flings. after they leave or fall asleep i take the used condom if there is one and hide it in a bag in my closet.
i dont even know when it started. the first time was by accident and i just didnt throw it away. now its become this secret collection. theres like 8 or 9 in there.
i know its gross and messed up and probably crosses a line. part of me feels disgusted every time i add another one but another part of me likes having them as private proof that it happened. nobody knows and i never plan on telling anyone.
i still do it even though i feel weird about it afterward.