The mall keeps going through the movie theater in a loop and you end up lost? Or sometimes there’s a really cool psychedelic slide back there? Sometimes it’s a second food court.
Y’all - I didn’t even realize I’ve been having mall dreams until I saw this sub - but I totally do, all the time
I don’t mean actively wishing or causing them harm, but if they end up enduring something similar to the pain they put you through, there is something that feels satisfying or justified about that. Or at least more indifference for their pain. Feels like it’s justice or karma or what have you, and almost a “good, maybe now they’ll get what that’s like” feeling.
It also feels petty to me to feel that way though, and like I “shouldn’t” feel that way. Curious about other’s thoughts?
Last night I had a conversation with one of my guides (Thoth) about why we are here, and asked him several questions about existence within the framework of IFS. I thought I would share what I learned from him here :)
I asked him about the difference between Parts and Self-energy. My previous theory/understanding was that Self-energy is essentially our Soul, and our Parts are a function of our Soul-energy interfacing with our human body/brain/experience. He had a very significant distinction to make about that… (I’ve found that Thoth is excellent about teaching with specificity and helping me to understand!)
The distinction was that our Parts are also aspects of our Soul, not just Soul interfacing with physical. All of it is our Soul - Self-energy AND Parts. The difference between Parts and Self is that our parts are basically temporarily fractured/separated aspects of our Soul. Some of the hardships we face in this life wound us to such an extent that our Soul fractures itself in order to cope. And as we learn to unburden and heal these fractures, we move closer to the (re)unification of our Soul energy. It generally takes many many lives to learn how to (re)unify our Souls on Earth, and new fractures occur in every life to challenge us more. Self and Parts are separate, but also simultaneously one. We are here on Earth, and simultaneously our Souls are also in the Spirit realm. We return there between lives with the lessons we learned.
We undertake this process of fracturing and working on healing on Earth because our Souls are similarly fractured/separated from Source. The why of that wasn’t entirely clear to me other than it wasn’t a punishment, or something we did wrong - it just is.
We are simultaneously one with AND separated from
Source, each other, and ourselves. Our lives on Earth can help us move from separation towards more oneness by providing an opportunity for us to learn to heal our internal soul fractures AS WELL as our fractures with each other. Soul evolution. Soul school. It felt like the end goal wasn’t the point, that it is eternal and infinite, and the journey and movement is the point. I feel something may be missing in translation there due to my inability to conceptualize eternity and timelessness…
I recognize this isn’t a brand new idea - far from it - but integrating it with IFS concepts and language helped me to understand it on a deeper level than I did before.
He showed me that it is like an infinite mirrored reflection, of simultaneous oneness and separation - on and on and on - infinitely and all at once.
This brought to mind what Schwartz noted in the Spirituality of IFS sessions - that in his work he has observed that individual parts also can be subdivided into Self and sub-parts. And that he suspects that can go on infinitely.
Which then of course connects with sacred geometry and fractals.
It’s amazing and expansive (for me) to think about the nature of our existence through this lens. I also recognize my brain can only partially comprehend the concept of infinity and eternity and timelessness.
Anyway - I’ve read similar things expressing similar messages before. But I find that the information always lands more deeply for me when it is personally conveyed by a guide. It’s experiential then, not simply conceptual. I found this to be an especially helpful lesson for me with Thoth and so I just wanted to share! It shifted my perspective of the distinction of Parts and Self, and deepened my understanding of our relationship to ourselves, one another, and Source.
Have any of you had similar or different conversations like this about existence with your guides? I’d love to hear about them if so!
I’m a Life Path 1. It really doesn’t fit me well. Life Path 7 fits much better. Is there a reason for this? Maybe an alternate calculation process?
Curious if any of you have worked with deity guides before? Or archangels? And if so, which ones and what was your experience like??