u/OkConference561

hello i have asd and im 22 years old - i mostly struggle with socializing with others. my plan was approved and i recieve a lot more hours per week compared to the 2 i previously recieved. i feel wrong to complain about this when there are people much more deserving of hours but i feel confused about this and i don't know where else to talk about it. i really do struggle with asd but i still feel capable of holding a job in the future. though it feels like everyone around me expects less than that. i have a 5 year plan and my OT suggested in 5 years i start living with full time support. i want to hold a job and live alone and even i want to be self capable some day. i really want to get better at my socializing. when i first recieved the hours, i told my support worker i could use them to volunteer and she shut it down and said we should spend time doing other stuff instead. we mostly go to the grocery store and more, but when we go we go self checkout and interact with almost nobody - i don't feel like i'm improving in that aspect at all. i definitely feel better having a reason to go outside some days of the week - but i feel like i am not building on ways that would support my future.

another concern.
my previous plan manager mentioned helping me find someone who could help me with finding a job - and my support worker said she can do it instead since she is employed in that area. again, when we went to another meeting, my support worker asked about being the person who processes my payments when my plan manager already does that. i really do like and enjoy my support worker but i don't want everything to be her job - if that makes sense. especially when there are other people that are trained in that regard and who are apart of a company... i don't know how to explain it. i just do not want to be her guinea pig when she is interested in starting these things when there's other people who do it as their full-time job. i really am sorry if that sounds condescending.

continuing on,
recently my plan manager lost her job and they're looking for a new plan manager for me within that business. but my support worker knows another lady who has a self employed plan manager and she mentioned that i could change to her instead. i think just with everything combined im scared she will use it as a way to get more jobs and work from that plan manager. her boss has also spoken to me about seeking other support workers since she has all of my hours. by the way, i really do like her. i don't think she has bad intentions but relating to the topic - i feel like nobody wants me to get better. i know i need to put in a better effort at speaking or suggesting things but i feel like they want me to stay this way since they've mentioned i'm an easy case.

hello i have asd and im 22 years old - i mostly struggle with socializing with others. my plan was approved and i recieve a lot more hours per week compared to the 2 i previously recieved. i feel wrong to complain about this when there are people much more deserving of hours but i feel confused about this and i don't know where else to talk about it. i really do struggle with asd but i still feel capable of holding a job in the future. though it feels like everyone around me expects less than that. i have a 5 year plan and my OT suggested in 5 years i start living with full time support. i want to hold a job and live alone and even i want to be self capable some day. i really want to get better at my socializing. when i first recieved the hours, i told my support worker i could use them to volunteer and she shut it down and said we should spend time doing other stuff instead. we mostly go to the grocery store and more, but when we go we go self checkout and interact with almost nobody - i don't feel like i'm improving in that aspect at all. i definitely feel better having a reason to go outside some days of the week - but i feel like i am not building on ways that would support my future.

another concern.
my previous plan manager mentioned helping me find someone who could help me with finding a job - and my support worker said she can do it instead since she is employed in that area. again, when we went to another meeting, my support worker asked about being the person who processes my payments when my plan manager already does that. i really do like and enjoy my support worker but i don't want everything to be her job - if that makes sense. especially when there are other people that are trained in that regard and who are apart of a company... i don't know how to explain it. i just do not want to be her guinea pig when she is interested in starting these things when there's other people who do it as their full-time job. i really am sorry if that sounds condescending.

continuing on,
recently my plan manager lost her job and they're looking for a new plan manager for me within that business. but my support worker knows another lady who has a self employed plan manager and she mentioned that i could change to her instead. i think just with everything combined im scared she will use it as a way to get more jobs and work from that plan manager. her boss has also spoken to me about seeking other support workers since she has all of my hours. by the way, i really do like her. i don't think she has bad intentions but relating to the topic - i feel like nobody wants me to get better. i know i need to put in a better effort at speaking or suggesting things but i feel like they want me to stay this way since they've mentioned i'm an easy case.