Abstinence is making me frustrated as hell.
I’m 26 (f) and have been abstinent for 2 years now by choice. I can’t do casual hookups because I get too emotionally attached or I feel horribly shameful after. I have a really high sex drive but want to have sex with someone who I love, and want to honor my future husband by not sleeping around casually. But the problem is, my dating life has gone so dry since being abstinent. It feels difficult to find a man who wants to actually get to know me rather than just hookup with me. I put myself out there, guys will ask for my number and then not text me, or lead me on. I carry and take care of myself well and have a good personality and attractive (subjectively). So I’m just feeling frustrated especially when I’m ovulating, I don’t know how much longer I can take this, I feel like I’m torturing myself for no reason. Abstinence has helped stay disciplined and in weeding out the guys who are just looking for hookups but I just am feeling discouraged like I’m doing this for no reason because ultimately men just want sex.