Feeling ashamed for having daddy issues
I‘ve had daddy issues for a very long time, I first became really aware of them during my teenage years, but I pushed them down for a long time. I was so afraid of facing this, it felt so wrong, because everyone around me was constantly reminding me how wrong this supposedly is. Now, I met this older man online earlier this year. We‘ve had this sort of spark imediatly, and now have a long distance fwb. I‘ve never in my life have done this before, I‘ve only ever fantasized about it. It feels so strange, because in a way it feels freeing but scary at the same time, because of the shame and stigma atached to this. Even though no one knows about this, and it’s all online, the shame sometimes creeps up on me still. It’s also a bit confusing, because these sexual feelings are sort of being mixed, with also him feeling like a father figure on some level aswell. I suppose this was a bit of a vent, it just feels really complex, I just needed to write it all down, I hope this made sense, and maybe some of you relate. Sorry if this was a bit incoherent, I struggle with my cognition sometimes.