u/Ok_Designer4902

I’m sorry I don’t know what flair to use. I’m at my lowest point in life ever right now. I’ve had a bad gambling addiction that’s gotten progressively worse over this past year. I’ve tried to lie to myself but I’ve realized I have a problem. I’ve lied to myself, my wife and family. I’m early accessing my wages from my job to gamble. Sometimes I win but the losing massively outweighs the wins. I’ve attended a few meetings but I always get sucked back in. I can’t keep up with my daily necessities and bills. Cars going to eventually get repoed. I can’t seem to shake my bad habits. Me and my wife have a 6 month old son. I have lots of debt and loans. I don’t even know where to start. I owe 2k in rent by tomorrow. There’s a lot more I have going on. I’m really just typing out my feelings to make me feel better and get stuff off my chest. Me and my wife have merged accounts but I hide money and use to gamble. I’m trying to get better and I want to stop. I’m on the verge of losing everything that’s close to me. I need help. I also have a P🌽 addiction. I know all this makes me a bad person but I can’t shake it. I swear everyday I tell myself I’m going to do better and be better. I’ve told my wife it would probably be best if we separated until I can get myself together. Her and my son deserve so much better than I am.

Day 1

I’m at my lowest point