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I don’t even know where to start.

I’m a multimedia artist. I used to actually enjoy what I do—designing, creating, seeing things come together. Kahit pagod, it felt worth it.

Then our company merged with another one.

After that, everything just… fell apart.

People started resigning. Systems got messy. Workloads doubled—but expectations didn’t change. Walang adjustment. Walang pause. Parang everything just kept moving, kahit clearly hindi na kaya.

I didn’t realize how bad it got until last week.

I did 34 collaterals in one week.
Not counting captions. Not counting coordination. Not counting revisions and last-minute changes.

Just 34.

May time pa na, 2 motion graphic, 1 static ang need, (made from scratch) 3 hours left on shift, gusto nila agad by end of day.

I don’t even remember half of what I made. That’s how autopilot I’ve been.

And the worst part?

I’m not even angry anymore.

I used to care so much. I used to go the extra mile. Ngayon, I log in, do what I can, and log off. If something goes wrong, I don’t even have the energy to defend myself anymore.

Recently, I got called out for:

• posting the “wrong version” (file wasn’t even labeled properly)
• missing a post when there was no content given in the first place

And I just sat there like… okay.

Not because I agree.
But because I’m too tired to explain.

My manager isn’t even a bad person. She’s actually kind. And I think that’s what makes this harder.

Because I can see she’s also under pressure.

So everything just trickles down.

And I’m at the bottom of it.

I didn’t reply over the weekend because I was busy and honestly just needed to breathe. It was my birthday, I had church, I had a life outside work for once.

And somehow even that turned into stress the following week.

I think that’s when it hit me.

This isn’t sustainable anymore.

Not because I’m weak.
Not because I’m lazy.

But because this isn’t how work is supposed to feel.

I’m burnt out in a way that sleep doesn’t fix.

I don’t feel proud of my work anymore. I don’t feel excited. I just feel… empty.

Postings and captions are not even part of my responsibility, I am only a multimedia artist.

I don’t even know where to start.

I’m a multimedia artist. I used to actually enjoy what I do—designing, creating, seeing things come together. Kahit pagod, it felt worth it.

Then our company merged with another one.

After that, everything just… fell apart.

People started resigning. Systems got messy. Workloads doubled—but expectations didn’t change. Walang adjustment. Walang pause. Parang everything just kept moving, kahit clearly hindi na kaya.

I didn’t realize how bad it got until last week.

I did 34 collaterals in one week.
Not counting captions. Not counting coordination. Not counting revisions and last-minute changes.

Just 34.

May time pa na, 2 motion graphic, 1 static ang need, (made from scratch) 3 hours left on shift, gusto nila agad by end of day.

I don’t even remember half of what I made. That’s how autopilot I’ve been.

And the worst part?

I’m not even angry anymore.

I used to care so much. I used to go the extra mile. Ngayon, I log in, do what I can, and log off. If something goes wrong, I don’t even have the energy to defend myself anymore.

Recently, I got called out for:

• posting the “wrong version” (file wasn’t even labeled properly)
• missing a post when there was no content given in the first place

And I just sat there like… okay.

Not because I agree.
But because I’m too tired to explain.

My manager isn’t even a bad person. She’s actually kind. And I think that’s what makes this harder.

Because I can see she’s also under pressure.

So everything just trickles down.

And I’m at the bottom of it.

I didn’t reply over the weekend because I was busy and honestly just needed to breathe. It was my birthday, I had church, I had a life outside work for once.

And somehow even that turned into stress the following week.

I think that’s when it hit me.

This isn’t sustainable anymore.

Not because I’m weak.
Not because I’m lazy.

But because this isn’t how work is supposed to feel.

I’m burnt out in a way that sleep doesn’t fix.

I don’t feel proud of my work anymore. I don’t feel excited. I just feel… empty.

Postings and captions are not even part of my responsibility, I am only a multimedia artist.

Pagod na ko, kailangan pa din ba natin maging resilient sa ganun? Nagpapagamit na lang ba ako?