I crave physical intimacy but hate the thought of having sex
Ive never been in a long term relationship but i have been close with people intimately but whenever it gets to the point of actually having sex i get wierded out. its almost as if the forplay is the part that i enjoy?
i havent been in too many relationships so im not sure if it was just the people of if it was me. the thing is when i fantisise about people /doing things its always just physical closeness but never actually the act of having sex, like i can never imagine it without wierding myself out.
ive never really prioritised relationships but i always seem to crave that physical intamicy/ closeness. for example sometimes when im with my friends i will always want to hold their hand or lay next to them if were just sitting around(just for that closeness as i know anything more is wierd). if i dont get this opportunity i will hold something that is on them e.g. their bag or their coat. i try not to like hold their clothes because i feel like they will find it wierd but its just the.(probably not relevent)
to me it doesnt really matter who it is with i just want that leval of intamacy that you get when youre in a relationship but without having to go that extra step to actually having sex.
ive tried to find other posts that relate to me but have failed so decided to make my own. if anyone relates then please let me no im not crazy but also any advice on what to do because it can get akward when my partner gets to the point of wanting sex and ive done everything up to that point but i dont want to have sex. thanks for reading this whole ass thing xx