u/Ok_Performance4170

*If it is an organ

I've been thinking about relationships a lot lately. I'm already 15 years old, and I haven't even been in a relationship. I liked one girl, but she didn't take me seriously and nothing happened between us. I have no problems communicating with girls, I have several girl friends, but so far I have not had any kind of connection with anyone, probably because I do not often take the initiative, do not flirt and try to behave with restraint so as not to seem strange. What is probably typical of my age, my opinion about relationships and love is changeable: on the one hand, I consider relationships to be an unnecessary waste of time that I could spend on something more rational and important, on the other hand, I would like to try myself in a relationship, to love and be loved. Maybe people think I'm boring? It seems to me that people are moving away from me because of my character and thoughts. Honestly, sometimes I just want to turn off my brain and let my feelings run wild. I often see people sharing their experiences in real life and online, and at such moments I feel alienated. I honestly don't understand how people start relationships, I do not know where to start. I am ready to listen to the opinions of others

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I partially use the translator, I'm sorry if something is unclear.