I think I’m trans but I fear it doesn’t fit my current lifestyle
for context i’m 25 f and a mom of two. I have a husband and had my first child at 18 meaning i’ve been a mom/wife my whole adult life. I’ve always been depressed tbh but latley things have been getting really hard to cope with. I want to be a man so bad. I have crazy gender envy whenever I just see men in public or in a movie. When my husbands friends come over I get so crazy jealous thinking “why can’t i naturally look like that?” I feel like crying about it. My husband says it’s just postpartum but I feel like it’s not that. I really want top surgery. The first time I started questioning my gender was when I was 13, I remember finally convincing my mom to cut my hair super short and I was so happy. I wanted to be a boy so bad but my family is crazy religious so I just ended up burying the feeling. But yet i’m here feeling it all over again. I feel like no one would take me seriously if I were to transition since i’m a young mom and tbh the idea of my kids calling me dad sounds kinda weird haha. anyways just looking for any advice? I haven’t been able to talk to anyone about this, I feel embarrassed due to the roles i’m already in.