this makes no sense, I'm not even interested in buying her new skins out of spite.
its ironic because I actually study mechanical engineering in the best university of my country.
But when I look back, the more I think about my life the more would be explained if I was diagnosed as mentally retarded (and I don't say it lightly).
This is a mix of a rant, trying to get other people's perspectives, and providing one specific POV for people who feel similar.
I see a lot of people talking about autism symptoms, struggles, etc.
I don't see people talking about feeling biologically dumb.
I'm not sure if I'm support lv 2, but even other ADHD and autistic people I've met find me weird for some reason.
for example, most of the ones I've met learned at a young age to "stay quiet" to try and hide any weirdness. I genuinely only noticed that after my diagnosis at 22y.
So on the first 2 weeks of class I had already tried to talk to like ~50 from 70 students in my college class.
And no one liked me after 2 or 3 days. And I did it on every place I would go.
I never slept 7H30+ for a entire week in a row in my life.
At some points I play 5~10h a day of league with the same champion for almost 9 years now. I've like 2~3k games with this this one.
I've been 90% of the time in my room for the last 5 years, because It's too hard to start new stuff.
I genuinely wanted to find ND people thinking we would be similar, and we usually are. But after some time, it feels like I've something worse, almost like they're NT compared to me.
Overall, its hurtful ,but I don't have other explanation besides being mentally retarded.
Is there any reason for that?
I've seen a lot of autistic people with recessive hairline from a young age like 14~16, even earlier.
I assume it could be stress?