One year after the end of my marriage … reality hits !
So I’ve been separated for one year … it was really not planned but after 20+ years we’d grown apart and suddenly I discovered my ex husband had an affair with one of his coworkers and I decided to end the marriage right there and then - never regretted it because I was no longer feeling alive and happy (but without realising it)
This past year has been very nice, elating in a bit, I felt very excited to have my single life, endless possibilities and especially a great pleasure to do only what I wanted when I wanted it (I love my work and my 2 daughters are a little bit grownup already so it doesn’t feel like something annoying to do haha)
The family house (my dream house really) has been sold - I’ve moved to a different place which is very very nice … and then suddenly yesterday when I picked up the last little things left in the old house … reality hit me !!
I am 52 and single ! This is so weird … unplanned… unsettling … overwhelming also ! I feel I’ve jumped out of the « marriage and family life » train and suddenly I don’t know where I am going ! My house is behind me and with it all the vision of the future I had … and in front of me ?? It is a bit scary but I feel it’s like hanging on the edge of a cliff … no predefined structure - no path - no default person when things get hard … I’ve got lots of friends, hobbies, activities, new relations … but it’s not the same ! I don’t want my old life back … I just feel a little bit lost :)
Is it weird that it’s happening after 1 year ? Did you go through that also ? What do you think ?