u/Old-Reference5029

I feel like I don’t get along with people ( i’m not a teen I’m almost 21yo) i feel like any people who get into my life has a limited time then i let him go idk it feels like it’s something in me i feel like my mind always trying to let me be by myself tbh I don’t mind but lately i started to think maybe i’m the problem maybe i’m someone who not reachable even my family I don’t get along with them (btw i’m prepa student and i’m very smart) I also feel like I always push away people I enjoy being alone but now it feels bad that everyone has a best friend but i’m no one’s best friend

Is it okay to suddenly miss someone who you didn’t attract with for a long time and you didn’t think about him for a long time knowing damn well that this person did you dirty and was a bad person and hurt you + cheated on you and you are not allowed to miss him and you don’t even want this person back in your life and you don’t want any attraction with this person but today i woke up missing him and thinking about him (if he texted me I won’t respond) and i am ashamed that i feel like that i thought that i’ve moved on while ago (he’s an ex)