Can anyone just tell me it’s okay
The relationship I have with hangxiety is probably the longest one I have had. Doesn’t matter if I did something - I’m gonna be on edge hating myself the next days. Yesterday I drank too much and smoked more than usual and I’m usually just fun (a little stupid but hey it’s okay) but yesterday I was so agitated that I ranted about my ex. Nothing that isn’t true or rlly bad but also nothing that Is really worth telling anyone.
Wasn’t the only topic I talked about but it’s just the cherry on top.
My mind is just trying to replay every conversation and every topic and trying to find things that make me want to jump off a building. And then Ofc I can’t remember every single conversation that I had and am DYING and imagining what I could’ve said and how awful it might’ve been
I know it’ll fade, I know it’s fine. I just feel awful rn, I can rationalise and I know what I need to do but if anyone could just say everything is fine it would help. Positive affirmations are difficult for me in these situations.
Btw it also doesn’t help that I was mildly sexually assaulted yesterday (nothing bad but being a woman going home alone is just exhausting in that regard) but honestly - my hangxiety is worse than that atm haha