Paying for sex guilt?
Hello everyone! I (34 male, single) love checking ads and sales websites and there is one in particular where people offer sexual services. I like to read these ads and imagine the situations they can lead to although I've never paid for sex or anything, just chatting with the person. Of course some women are full time prostitues but there are some people looking for a second girl for a threesome, selling feet pics etc. There are college students in need who dont mind offering sex in exchange for money and I saw an ad of a 20y.o girl who offers sex for money and we started chatting and got along.
She's younger, she has had sex with 1 single guy before and she wants the money for moving to a bigger apartment. The idea of having sex with a girl who short ago was a stranger turns me on but I kinda feel bad for giving her money for sex. Then again I think I've spent much much more on dates that barely lead to a kiss so I think hey, she gets the money she wants, I get to fulfill the fantasy right?
I'm still having seconds thoughts though, what if she regrets later? We've been talking on fake accounts on instagram so we can always block and forget but what if I feel dirty or guilty? Or if a future girlfriend feels disgusted or dissapointed of dating someone wh paid for sex? I have mostly female friends and I know things they have done for money which isnt far from this situation so maybe I'm worrying too much about others' opinion. I suffer from generalized anxiety disorder and I feel guilty for having secrets from my friends for example, Im scared I may feel guilty if I get to meet this girl, like if we went out on a kind of date and spent the same amount of money on a present or drinks I wouldnt mind but once again she would prefer having the money and save time
edit:
-she's the real girl behind the account, she sent me videos doing what I asked her to do to check it up
-In her ad she offered company in general, like watching movies, rental girlfriend, cafeteria dates, cuddling, sex, playing videogames etc whatever one could be into. I wouldnt feel so bad if we went for some coffee and talked before the sex part
-We could have been good friends if we met in a different way, we have similar interests and hobbies and attend same events in the city