8 years on T and my body still finds new ways to make me dysphoric
I have been on testosterone for about 8 years now. I’ve tried just about all forms of it and now I’m on Jatenzo. And have been for about 2-3 years. No major issues. I had been feeling yuck the last few days. Between feeling bloated and stomach cramps, I noticed after going to the bathroom that I was bleeding. I haven’t skipped a dose in months. I haven’t had this happen unless I was switching types of T or missed doses. As a result of this spotting, I have felt nothing but dysphoria. I don’t have people to go to that are trans that understand dysphoria, or the people I have don’t reassure me in a way that is helpful for me. And for the record, I have chatted with my wife who is afab, receiving only “I’m so sorry :(“ from her. It feels like because I am a guy, and present as such, I have to “tough” it out and “be a man” about it. I’m not sure how to make myself feel better about this, as rn I keep getting that reminder that I am not TRULY a man.