crush to crash
I had a crush on a guy, but he wasn't interested in women. No matter how much I flirted with him, he always seemed indifferent. Because of that, I tried different ways to get his attention, like wearing revealing clothes whenever I knew I'd see him.
One day, there was a gathering that he attended, so I went too. I stayed close to him the whole time. When it was time to go home, I asked if he could walk me back, and he agreed. Our house was a little way off the main road.
As we were walking, I asked him if he thought I was attractive. He said he felt shy around me. I laughed and told him not to be shy and that he should just treat me like I was his wife. I was surprised when he replied, "Don't joke like that. I might actually take you seriously." I smiled and said, "Game."
After that, we walked in silence. When we reached a dark area, he suddenly pulled me aside and kissed me. I kissed him back. Everything happened so quickly, and we ended up having sex. I asked him to use a condom, but he said, "Aren't you my wife?" Hearing those words made me give in.
A little while later, a group of people passed by nearby. I became nervous that we might be seen, so we stayed completely still until they had gone. Afterward, he got dressed, and I did the same. That's when I realized he had already ejaculated inside me without me noticing.
He didn't walk me all the way home after that, so I went back by myself since I lived nearby. When I got home, I noticed my underwear was soaked.
The next day, I saw him again. I was happy to see him and jokingly called him "hubby," but he acted as if he didn't even know me. He was cold and indifferent. I felt embarrassed and went home.
That's when I realized that if you show someone your desire hoping they'll love you, you may only receive desire in return—not love.