One week postpartum and husband said I’m a shitty mom
I’m only a week postpartum and it’s been hard for me. I wasn’t really able to rest for the first few days because we weren’t prepared for baby to come early and my partner refused to go to the store. I would say I was up and going around buying baby stuff the first 3 days and it really put a strain on my body. I slept a total of 10 hours within those 3 days, so I started to crash and needed to sleep but I was in a lot of pain so I slept and my husband had to take care of the baby and he kept telling me how I don’t do anything for my baby. I was pumping so I still wasn’t able to rest without waking up to feed my baby. I still haven’t been able to really rest but my husband primarily changes her diapers and I honestly stay up so he can sleep at least 4-6 hours a night & I started breastfeeding to help my supply but my baby does cry cause she isn’t able to latch right away and it wakes him up and he told me I’m a shitty mom cause I let her cry and that I don’t do anything besides feed her and he’s become so mean and he calls me ungrateful for what he does for her. He tells me I’m too slow when I’m changing her diaper and he’s told me I’m big and tries to get me to wear a faja, I still weigh as much as I did before my pregnancy I just have loose skin. It’s making me feel so bad and I feel like it’s affecting my milk supply, I feel so guilty holding my baby while crying cause I read that babies are emotional sponges. He watches reels of women in front of me and I just act like I don’t see, but I feel so ashamed of myself, I don’t even know what to say or feel because he told me I wanted a baby so to deal with it.