u/One_Firefighter3940

So after coming out as trans to my parents, and they were very accepting. But everytime I brought the subject of hrt up to my mum she hated it, and still does, but she brought up a very interesting point. That I only seem to be thinking about how I can physically look like a woman, instead of actually BEING a woman. And she is totally right, I'm feel really bad about this as it feels like i have disrespect all trans girls globally by calling myself trans even though im most likely not. I thought about that conversation a lot afterwards, and I realised that actually being a girl kinda sucks, and I think the only reason I thought I was, is because of my clothing interests and sexual orientation, im bisexual and I love wearing feminine clothes, so i convinced myself i must be a girl. But I can be a guy and wear feminine clothes and like both girls and boys. Im sorry to all trans girls globally 😢🙏.

I am actively doing skin care and make up, and I have also been genetically blessed with my mums face so I have a feminine jawline, yet I always take pictures that leave out my face, how can I be more comfortable with my face as im working towards longer hair are clear skin?

Ooooooh my god. I didn't want to have to do both of them on the same day, but i told my mum and she started CRYING, and then she told me i was brave and that she was happy i could tell her. Then she said I needed to tell my dad. I asked if I could leave it a while, as I knew for certain he wouldn't understand. But she made me tell him, she said she needed his comfort, and to do that, I had to tell him. And so after hesitating for about 30 mins, I told him I didn't want to be a man anymore, and he was just like "oh, well. Oh" and said that he was a little sad and disappointed, but again like my mum, that he was happy i could tell him, and he said he has a lot of learning to do. Well shit, my heart is racing so much, how am I genuinely going to get through tommorow, its gonna be so awkward.

EDIT: So, the only real reason I had to tell them, was because I intend to start HRT very soon, and I felt bad starting it without telling them, so I did. And they have just told me I cant start private care? And have to go with the NHS? (British btw). THE NHS WAITING LIST IS 9 FUCKING YEARS, IM NOT WAITING THAT LONG. Im 18 I can do this by myself.

Someone told me it was obvious I was a guy, and shouldn't be wearing girl clothes because it's misleading :( I forgot there was people in the world like that and it was a bit of a shock not gonna lie.